2020
20 Things I’m Leaving in 2020
The uncertainty of 2020 - it’s done now! 2020 is certain. And we got through it
My medication :) (Which has been incredibly helpful and I’m now looking forward to see what I can achieve in the next chapter on my mental health journey.
Feeling lonely when I haven’t seen my friends or family
Feeling embarrassed about things I DON’T need to!
Feeling guilt for things I REALLY don’t need to
Telling myself I have to keep going when I’m tired and feeling sick
Waking up in the middle night feel sick and scared
Thoughts that I can’t make theatre - despite my degrees and all the shows I’ve done
Trying to rationalise myself out of sadness even though things are sad (and have been sad all year!)
Getting frustrated with people (when they’re nothing I can do about it!)
Not finishing projects
Not finishing projects because it’s not perfect straight away
Feeling foggy headed
Not baking because I don’t think I deserve it - I ALWAYS deserve to bake because it makes me happy
Not finding time for yoga
Being annoyed at myself for forgetting yoga
Binging on Netflix (I can at least break up binges with little tasks)
Feeling hopeless - There is always hope
Not taking a breath when I need to
Not making more theatre - come one Joni MAKE MORE THEATRE. Theatre is your heart beat
20 Things to Keep in 2020
Choosing kindness for myself
Choosing kindness for everyone else
Reading (and devouring) theatre academic books
Garnier Ultimate Blends Hair Food Banana 3-in-1 Dry Hair Mask Treatment
Swimming in the sea!
Wearing dungerees all the time
Walking the dog without listening to music or podcasts or LBC and just being
Writing to music
Making little puppet videos
Writing in ONE journal as apposed to 7
Making paper art (And finishing my book)
Posting about my work and process (and doing it more!)
Listening to myself
Listening to what my body is saying
Letting myself feel sad when I need to and reminding myself it will pass
Eating pastries at on a grassy hill
Eating pastries by the seaside
Making home-made pizza
Doing something creative everyday and making a note of it so I can SEE all the creative things I’ve done.
Trying new things and doing it with an open mind and NOT thinking I have to be amazing at it straight away